Ive been getting emails telling me what I am teaching you is dangerous. I need to stop. Yes it’s dangerous. I know there is stuff on here to help people with their lives and self improvement, but my esoteric stuff is much deeper. The Goddess and Magic is dangerous for those who just want to dabble. Spirituality, duality and awakening have dangers to them. Your ego will fight back. It does not like the subconscious or the Goddess. On this path, you have to understand the Goddess is not for most people.
One thing you must understand is that you can not choose the Goddess. She has to choose you. Do you think you can just choose a company to go work for without the skills? Do you think you can choose to go play soccer for Barcelona? How about just walking into any Ivy League College you choose? No. They have to choose you. As above so below. If you are meant to wake up, you will wake up. The Goddess will choose you. If you choose to wake up like all the cyclops of today then you are kidding yourself. I can show you all the information I have learned and if you were meant to hear it you will hear it. If you were not meant to hear it you will think its garbage and go on about your life. This is why certain religions think they are the chosen people. Religions have corrupted being chosen. I showed in Understanding the Ancient Texts that no one really understands the texts. When you don’t understand you get chosen people fighting chosen people! In truth you need to get the attention of spirit. When you get her attention she may choose you. Then show you things little by little. She is so dangerous that some people she chooses will not answer her call.
Why do you want to meet the Goddess? You have to come to terms with that. It will be different for everyone who tries to meet her. You have to dive deep. Not everyone will make it back to the surface. Ultimately you need to be able to fully surrender yourself to her and let go of all your personal shit. All the crap you have accumulated in this life time. Childhood traumas, ideologies you were fed, whether its religion or politics, lies fed to you in school, history you were taught, how your parents brought you up, etc. This all makes the journey very personable. There is an even deeper layer. The layer of materialism. Is your soul ready to let go of the attachment to materialism? Most can not. We humans are not all on the same level. The reason you should not force your opinions or what you know on others is because there is a force or something that is in control of the development or evolution of living beings. You can be a light for those seeking, but forcing something on someone is against Nature.
We humans try to mess with Nature all the time and royally f*ck things up. Where Nature is untouched things are perfect. The squirrel does what it does. The hawk does what it does. The insects do what they do. The predators do what they do. The plants do what they do. Everything is in harmony. You do not see the hawk going up to the squirrel and telling it how to act. It is as it is. Now the squirrel may see how the birds fly and want to give it a try. So you see flying squirrels and squirrels jumping from tree to tree. No bird told it to do this. It figured it out on its own by observation. It’s the same in consciousness. Everything has a consciousness. The majority of humans are in such a low state of consciousness that even if the truth is shoved right in their face they won’t see it or can’t handle it. It is not their time yet. Duality is built right in to our reality and they are here to fill in one side of that duality. It might take ten more life times for them to figure it out.
In this life form you will not escape materialism all together. We all need money. We all have sexual desires. We all have to eat. I have said many of times we are here to experience life. Does materialism control you or do you use it to help you? Purifying your mind and body does not mean sitting alone. It does not mean taking drugs to awaken. The point of everyones life is not to awaken. It is not the one right path. The point of awakening or meeting the Goddess is because you want too. If you think there has to be more to life, then try meeting the Goddess. I told you duality is built right in to our reality. How would you know what the Goddess is if there wasn’t a God? How would you know if you are awake if everyone else was awake? My passion is the love of truth. I want to experience things and do things to find the truth for myself. I want to engage life. As you go through life you will exhaust certain motivation and needs just from experiencing them. Im not passionate about the things I was passionate about when I was a teen. We will all need something new to satisfy our soul.
A huge part of meeting the Goddess is figuring out what you want. Not what you have been told you want. We have media bombarding us with things all the time, teachers have told you things, religious leaders have told you things, parents have told you things and your friends have told you things. All this puts stuff in our minds that we think we want. We absorb our ideals from our culture. Its absorbed into the subconscious right where the Goddess sees it. She can tell if it’s what you want or what you think you want. We can think they are our own goals and they are not. It is our conditioning. Religion may tell you to be Christ like but without the Goddess it will create suffering. Christ means anointed one. Jesus was considered the Christ because Mary Magdalen anointed him. It says she anointed his feet which is a metaphor for penis. Shoe is the symbol of the feminine so feet or the symbol for masculine. Foot goes into shoe. You can not be Christ like without the Goddess anointing you. No Monk, no Rabi, no Priest, no Paster, no Pope, no Buddha, etc. Nothing in the patriarchal religions will every be Christ like. They can wear the garb all they want, but they will never see the truth. The biblical Jesus was from a matriarchal family.
Meeting the Goddess is the most radical and hardcore thing you can do. It will change the software that is running your entire life and creating your physical reality. This is threatening to most people. It might mean the loss of family, friends, identity, job, etc. If you really wanted to know what truth is then she would show herself. Faking it will not work. The path can get very dark. Everything she shows you can still get misinterpreted. Your mind still has an ego. If you do not have the ego under control it will misinterpret. People will think you are crazy. It gets lonely because you have no one who will understand you. No one to talk to. You might get depressed and suicidal. This is a hardcore path. You have to be able to lead yourself. When you meet the Goddess no one can help you but yourself. There is no such thing as spontaneous awakening. I was on the brink of killing myself. It took a luck call from my daughter to stop it. Not long after that I met the Goddess. It was an awakening but It was after several years of hard work.
The hardest part of awakening is accepting the truth. Most do not want to accept the truth. They do not want to accept that most of what they have been taught is not true. The few that do accept it have trouble putting the pieces of the puzzle together. This is why I put my work out there. I can’t give you the answers but I can help show you the way. You will have inner demons and depression pop up. You must come face to face with meaninglessness. Meaning is something your ego projects in order to survive. You will have to realize everything the ego is doing to you is an illusion. The trick is to get it to work with your subconsciousness. You will have to figure out what you can tolerate. You do not need to hurry. Awakening is a life experience. Not just one moment. Figure out how you can stay functional and healthy. Don’t push yourself so hard that you give up. You will slide back, it happens. You will get frustrated. There will be times when you are tired and times when you have a ton of energy. Slow and steady is the way.
Do not turn your awakening into a dogma or ideology. Other people are exactly where they need to be. Lead by example not by telling others to be like you. Don’t make the Goddess into a religion. That is not spirituality. Meeting the Goddess is an emotional labor. The heart of meeting the Goddess is the purification of the heart and the mind. When your ego is screaming for you to do something and you are able to quiet it and stay conscious that is the doorway. This is something you have to do over and over and over. The ego will not shut up!!! It wants to be in charge. But it will slowly over time heel like the barking dog it is. This is why Nietzsche said “Whenever I climb I am followed by a dog called Ego”. The ego does not want you to climb. It wants you to stay on its level. If meeting the Goddess was easy you would see everyone doing it. Do you see anyone anywhere talking seriously about the Goddess? Do you even hear her mentioned? Before you found my blog have you even ever herd of the Goddess? I will bet the answer is no. Everyone is in the ego mind. The subconscious is just a word. Something they can just study and figure out how to get it to work for the ego. They have it all backwards. The ego needs to work for the subconscious not the subconscious working for the ego. The ego put itself in charge because of what happened in our ancient past. There is a barrier to the Goddess or everyone would know her. Less than 1% of people are awake so the barrier must be enormous!
How do you become chosen? You have to have value. Look in Nature. Who do the females flock to in Nature. The males with the highest value. The females choose the male. We have masculine minds. All of us. So ladies this pertains to you too. What is your value in this world? Do you give value to the world or do you constantly take, take, take. How interesting is your life? Do you have independence? Not the independence of I can do it all on my own. The independence of that you can handle things. That you know things. You have confidence. You have independence from the Goddess. If she is not there for you then you could handle anything. If your value is high the Goddess is going to be intrigued. This is a law of Nature. This is why girls flock to rock stars and celebrities. As above so below. What this world has done is lower the value of the Goddess in hopes that she sees us as more valuable and will do our bidding. Like a bad boyfriend who constantly talks down to his girlfriend.
In Nature’s terms value is survival and reproduction. Humans think value is looks, money, status, social value and state of the situation value. Im not here to teach how to attract more humans, Im showing you how to attract the Goddess. Good health matters. Engaging life matters. Don’t be needy. You can not convey value to her like you can human females. She has to experience your value. Your value comes form your values, experiences and perspective. If your value gives her value she will be in your presence. Now whether you can see her or answer her is another story. Just like people can not tell if someone is flirting with them, most can’t tell if the Goddess is in their presence or flirting with them. In Nature the male can definitely see the female, but humans don’t know what the sacred feminine is. Most can’t see her when she is right in front of them. When you give the Goddess a glimpse of who you are, who you have become, what you have grown into in life, then you are sharing and offer value to her.
Are you doing things to help yourself grow? Are you doing things to help her grow? With the Goddess it about the sacred feminine surviving and reproducing into evolution. Value is absolute with the Goddess. Value is relative with human females. You can’t have value in certain situations and not others with the Goddess. Which brings me to the power of Nature. This is why most can not handle the Goddess. In myths there usually is a good female and a bad or dark female. I have shown before that Nature can be beautiful and destructive. The Goddess does both. Religions will tell you that god lets bad things happen to people to bring them closer to god. It can’t be gods fault bad things happen it’s the devil. Hermetics understand the All creates good and evil. People of the Goddess understand she causes good and evil. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. The Goddess has been scorned in this world. She also tests the masculine mind. Do females test men? As above so below. Difference is you are not going to trick the Goddess like you can trick naive girls.
My last point here is about making the human race better. Women change men. It’s not that women want to change men it’s a fact. We say women get men to settle down. In truth the men become a better person. When men have daughters they change even more. Here is what is needed for our masculine minds to ‘settle down’ or to simply become better. They need the Goddess. The Goddess will temper our minds and make it grow up. This is why the Goddess has only been for the few who understand this. Male or female you have a masculine ego. Without the Goddess in you life it runs wild. It’s time for our minds to grow up. It’s time for them to be balanced. The Goddess does not want to be your mother she wants to be your partner. Children see the Goddess and she is with them. We just don’t call it the Goddess, we call it imagination. It’s time to start using the rest of our brain.
This is why Isis was so important in Ancient Egypt. It’s why things in the ancient world are so much more advanced than things we build today. The ancient knew our minds were masculine and it needed the Goddess for brilliance and wisdom. Nothing can be created in this world unless comes through the womb of the feminine. The subconscious is the feminine side of your mind.
Apuleius in the eleventh book of The Golden Ass ascribes to the goddess the following statement concerning her powers and attributes: “Behold, * *, I, moved by thy prayers, am present with thee; I, who am Nature, the parent of things, the queen of all the elements, the primordial progeny of ages, the supreme of Divinities, the sovereign of the spirits of the dead, the first of the celestials, and the uniform resemblance of Gods and Goddesses. I, who rule by my nod the luminous summits of the heavens, the salubrious breezes of the sea, and the deplorable silences of the realms beneath, and whose one divinity the whole orb of the earth venerates under a manifold form, by different rites and a variety of appellations. Hence the primogenial Phrygians call me Pessinuntica, the mother of the Gods, the Attic Aborigines, Cecropian Minerva; the floating Cyprians, Paphian Venus; the arrow-bearing Cretans, Diana Dictynna; the three-tongued Sicilians, Stygian Proserpine; and the Eleusinians, the ancient Goddess Ceres. Some also call me Juno, others Bellona, others Hecate, and others Rhamnusia. And those who are illuminated by the incipient rays of that divinity the Sun, when he rises, viz. the Ethiopians, the Arii, and the Egyptians skilled in ancient learning, worshipping me by ceremonies perfectly appropriate, call me by my true name, Queen Isis.”