This is Why We Suffer

Why do we suffer?  To put it simply, because we keep running from ourselves.  We keep thinking that our inner being is evil.  We hide our true selves from others because what is down there is evil or wrong.  It does not go with what society wants.  To accept oneself completely is one of the most difficult things to do.  Once you have accepted yourself you have become whole psychologically.  You have become a Goddess or God.  

All the looking for god, buying self-help books, wanting to become enlightened, seeking spirituality, etc.  It is all running from your true self.  It is why we like a teacher who will put us through severe paces or work.  They have you do things or read things that just get your mind off of who you are.  Religious teachers will have you repenting and praying.  Some gurus will put people in a sweat shop to sweat out their sins or walk on fire. We feel we have to suffer in order to make things right or at the very least certain gurus will have us do things to get our minds off our misdeeds for a while.  We must punish ourselves for what we have done.   “Seek help, punish myself, you are an awful person”, this is what we tell ourselves.  We start to feel guilty.  This is all in the masculine mind or the ego.  You can not overcome ego by fighting it with ego.  That is fighting a fire with more fire.  You can not get rid of the ego.  The best you can do is make it work with you and for you.  

Guilt is a destructive emotion.  Yes we should do something about changing a situation, but feeling guilty about something changes nothing.  When people feel guilty about something they will do all sorts of things like give to charity, see a therapist or priest, anything to make them feel better.  Which is actually doing nothing about it.  Guilt causes people to react this way.  I admire animals and children because they do not lie awake at night worrying about their mistakes and misdeeds.  Everyone makes mistakes.  But this world shames people for their mistakes.  When we feel guilty we start walking around feeling as though our pride has been hurt.  We need to understand that life is all about making mistakes.  With our minds shackled like this it causes us to make more and more mistakes. 

I know I always go to sports, but it is a perfect analogy of life.  When I was in high school I had made a regional all-star team for baseball.  I played for a coach who I had never met before.  While practicing pitching I did very well.  So well I was named the starting pitcher to start the all-star tournament.  When the first game came I struggled to get the ball over the plate.   I walked the first three batters!  Anyone who knows baseball knows that base loaded and with no outs is not good.  My coach called time out and came out to visit me on the mound and led with, “What the hell is wrong with you?”  I didn’t answer.  As a matter of fact i didn’t say one word on that visit to the mound.  This is what he told me, “Quit trying to be perfect!  I can tell you are trying to be perfect because you are aiming.  Just throw the ball! So what if you made some mistakes.  Just get them on the next throw.  Freedom is not worrying about making mistakes!”  I left out all the expletives, but he was right.  I was trying to not make mistakes and when I did I beat myself up for it.  I pulled myself together and struck the next batter out and got the batter after him to ground into a double play.  I actually pitched the entire game and we won the game 2-1.  That speech the coach gave me stuck in my head and I have tried to use it for my life.  We all make mistakes.  If you make one just try not to do it again.  Or do it less often.  As the Chicago Cubs manager Joe Maddon says, “Try not to suck”.  

I have shown you that the whole self includes everything you think is opposite of yourself in Love they Enemy.  Just as you are a God or Goddess, you also have the devil in you. When I say devil, I mean things you dont like or think are evil.  You have everything in you.   The ancient Greeks knew one could not suppress their so-called bad side forever.  They had festivals for people to just let themselves go.   Everyone has a rascal in them.  I think of our rascally side as salt in food.  Not enough salt and you are bland.  Too much salt and you are bitter, so you will get yourself in trouble.  Just enough and you are delicious.  The most interesting people let their rascal come out.  If one does not have a few vices one would cease to manifest.  

You may think something is ugly, wrong, evil or sick, but these are just points of view. These are just parts of the whole.  You taking those points of view is part of nature.  But people see absolute opposites.  This why people are not connected with reality and they feel guilt.  Your own physical formation is not absolute.  You are something the whole universe is doing.  Your soul is not in your body, your body is in your soul.  Nature is perfect.  You are part of nature so you are perfect.  Quit trying to be perfect.  The Universe is living.  It as a whole has an intelligence greater than anyone of its parts. It will go in a certain direction on its own whether you like it or not.  It is able to organize your behavior in a more intelligent way then you can organize it.  But the intelligence of the universe grows as you grow and if you are tapped into that intelligence you grow as she grows.  

When you don’t realize how everything is perfect already you become very critical. When you’re being critical you are not happy, you are suffering.  You waste energy.  Except reality as it is.  You are never going to be, act, look or find perfect because perfect is already in front of you.  Accepting that everything is perfect is freedom.  Art is not done for the sake of being perfect it is done for the state of joy.  The artist creates because it brings them joy and delight. Think about how much more enjoyable your life would be if you enjoyed your life how it is. Even the mistakes and bad stuff.  Focus on the process not the outcome.  A great artists loves art, a great musician loves music, a great athlete loves their sport, a great sculptor loves to sculpting. Not because they want to wow the world and show off.  They love the process.  The process is perfect to them.  I get just as frustrated and hurt when things don’t go my way, but I push through.  I remind myself it is part of the perfect process.  

I have always told my readers they need to guard the gates of their mind and be the watcher of their own thoughts.  Realize how critical you are of the outside world because however critical you are of the world, you are that way to yourself.   Change your filter to the world is perfect the way it is and be yourself.  Accept and enjoy the world.  Life is life it is exactly what it is and it is perfect.  Are you strong enough for the Goddess?  Practice acceptance.  It will be just like coming off negative thoughts I showed you in Magic. It is like a drug addiction.  You are addicted to being critical.  Your mind will rebel and want to be critical.  Catch your self being critical.  Reject being critical and accept.  See the beauty in yourself, life and the world.  The good and the bad.  All the good and bad, ups and downs, right and wrong, living and dying, etc.  Everything together makes everything perfect.  

Everyone says, “No one is perfect”.  They are wrong!  The only reason why no one is perfect is because they are not like the person who is saying it.  They might as well be saying “No one is perfect because they are not like me”.  All the flaws and defects of this world are perfect.  Every tree, every blade of grass, every flower, every animal, every insect and every human is perfect.  Society may try to diagnose our gifts as disorders, but you don’t need to be a perfect person with perfect make up and perfect skills or a perfect build.  You are perfect already.